Day 4, I feel better.
In true love there has to be total acceptance and approval of the person you love. You have to take in their good qualities and the bad as well. In flaws you will find perfection, in perfection you will find comfort. That comfort of knowing that no matter what the day brings to you, you can always have that person to wait for you at the end of the day and greet you in the beginning of it as well. Not a minute passes by where their love isn’t on your mind, and how happy you’ll be the next time you see them. I’ve been focusing on this, yes you may be far away, and we may not do what we want for one another, but we always manage. That’s what I love most about us, we prevail against everything, even ourselves. I’m sad you’re gone still, but happy I get to see you soon, to lock you away in my arms forever, and send my love coursing through your body, mind and heart. I accept you, I accept your goals, I accept what we are and I couldn’t be happier about that. I love you dearly, and I see progress and that my sweet, makes me smile.
No video, but I’ll reply anyway.
Today I showed my weakest side I’ve ever shown anyone, I broke down, not simply because of my girlfriend being away, but also because I felt like I’m a failure in many ways. I couldn’t get back into school in time for the 3rd time, I made over 22,000 dollars last year and I have nothing saved up to show for it, and now I have to pay back a small amount. I felt alone, scared, and she wasn’t there when I needed it. I’m not the type to ask for help.. but I trust in her, despite her lack of help tonight, I still believe in her. I refuse to lose hope in her and in us. She failed me tonight, but I’ll be damn if I fail myself in believing she’s the one. She is, she’s young, but she’s the one. I see it, and I’m not the only one. But at the same time, I won’t allow myself to stoop so low, and feel defeated at the sign of her being weak. It’s very hard for me to be positive, and I’m trying beyond anything right now to keep holding on to the love I cherish, God damn it, I refuse to let it go. I refuse to let the darker side of me win. I’ve let too many good people go due to my rage, and mistrust, but not this one, you won’t get to me anymore. I just need the push and help from her at this point. I love you, and the last 2 entries, have been heartfelt, just as this one. In love their is chaos at times, but it’s only the end of it when the two people see if it’s worth fighting for. I’m ready, I hope you are too.
Another night, another story to tell..
About how much a life without you weren’t be worth living. How you give color to this world, and you give motion to every action I do, you are absolutely the reason why everything in my life has much meaning to it now of days. You saved me from a life of lonesomeness. You bring further detail to what it is to be in love, the little things not many catch or embrace. We carry a book with us, detailing our love, sadness, or plain thoughts, every page written with honesty, and every page worth more to us than anything else. With such a love, that at times holds and bends us into shape just to keep us together, it’s worth keeping that love. Life will throw it’s aces at us, but we can surpass and rise above everything in the end. Your smile is the fuel to my happiness, your eyes are the key to my heart, and your soul is the piece missing in mine. I love you through and through. This is part 2 of the 5..
So I can’t sleep..
So I thought this would be the best way to calm my soul. I’m crazy, I’m impulsive, I’m broken, and I’m misguided, yet.. I’m in love with you for some reason. Actually scratch that, I’m in love with you for MANY reasons. Reasons that many wouldn’t understand, reasons that I would never have thought to find in any person. My love for you is tremendous, like that feeling you get when you wake up in the morning with a smile knowing everything in the world is perfect, because you make it perfect. Through the love and pain we feel, it’s not about the good times that makes us perfect it’s about the bad times too and how we prevail, how we stand stronger and still keep going. It’s like going to bed with that single thought of how amazing life is having someone to love, trust, long for, believe in, to make you strong, to bring out things inside of you that you never seen before. It’s with that single thought, that makes a person willing to push through everything in order to provide happiness to their loved one. That’s how you make me feel. It’s that feeling you get when you see the couple in Disney movies kiss for the first time, or last time, it’s the thought of having someone just as amazing in real life that makes that moment so much more impacting. It’s the feeling you get when you look up at the stars and gaze at how beautiful it truly is to be alive to view them, and hoping you’re looking up as well, caught in that one moment of happiness. It’s when a kiss isn’t just any kiss, it’s a breach into each other’s soul, a dip into the endless time of bliss, the natural high of being in love. It’s when you don’t see anything else in front of you, the world around you cease to exist, and the only thing captivating your eyes is the profound beauty your love has. It’s when you finally feel complete, perfect, strong to fight and die happily without any regrets. It’s when listening to love ballads, in any style and genre tells a story about the love you share. It’s when you fight against everything to prove them wrong, to prove to them true love does exist, even if you find yourself fighting against your own mind at times. It’s when I have you near that I truly feel alive, like I found my purpose in life, my calling, my reason to write away my feelings for you. It’s quite amazing how young and alive one feels when love strikes them. That kinda love is eternal, and will always stay youthful, thus making it undying. It’s the kind of love that gives you faith that there is something else after life, that even in death that amount of love is forever. You mean the world to me, because you are simply my world. All I see if you, and I’m happy with that. I love you Alexa, forever and always.
Deactivate your Facebook account..
And the whole world thinks you hate them. -___-
Shot of Jameson at work.
To calm down the demon within me. Maybe another dose or two to quiet it for sure.
(Source: urhajos, via drunkkidszhavfun)
Always All Ways
And I’ll wait here on my own. And I’ll wait for you to see, all the time I spend alone now won’t comfort me. Cause I’m waiting for you. Yeah I’m waiting for you. Give me answers, get me through. I will wait here. Always. All ways.
suddenly i feel really fuckin’ depressed…
Are you nuts!?! This song is suppose to be UPLIFTING!!
This song has gotten me through so many depressed moments.
I owe this song my life.
(Source: tastefullyoffensive, via rezowone)
